The Transformation

 I hope you had a great March and I pray that your relationship with God is only growing. Todays post is going to be about the changes I made at the beginning of this journey. In my marriage, there came a point where I just couldn't handle the negativity anymore. For one, I was going through the thick of it on my own. Nobody knew anything that was happening in my household and I didn't let it be known either. To put our problems out in the open,  to make my family and friends see my husband differently, I didn't want any of that. So I didn't allow myself to have anyone to turn to, so I chose God. He quickly became my best friend, comfort, refuge, and peace. 

After the moment I had where I said "I can't do this alone anymore. God come in and just lead the way" Thats exactly what happened and what I ALLOWED to happen. I CHOSE to say yes to God, to continue turning from my flesh and really leaning on him. 

1. Language - Although this was before my marriage, and this happened immediately after I got baptized -- I changed the way I talked. I was the one that had a cuss word in Every. Single. Sentence. So unnecessary... like why. I don't even know how it got to that point, but I had the worst mouth and thats the very first thing I worked on. Grateful to say that being intentional about my language really helped and it didn't take me long to stop having a potty mouth. 

2. Apps & Bible Plans - I began setting a time in my day to listen to bible plans and watch bible plan videos also. The main apps I used were the holy bible app & Right Now Media. I was intentional about what I was looking for. Plans on marriage, parenting, and stopping negative thought patterns. So while the kids had their quiet time, or dad was not busy, I would sit at the table and take notes on what I was reading and what I was listening to. And if by chance I didn't get to sit and listen, I would listen while cooking or washing dishes. I just made sure to learn whatever I could about God, about my situation, about myself. How could I shift my perspective from me, to God. 

3. Verse Memorization - Every bible plan that I read always had a verse at the end and if it spoke to me, I would write it down. For a very long time I had a specific verse written down and it would sit open next to my stove. As soon as I began having a break down moment, or a drawback, I went back to that verse and just repeated it over and over. After a while that became my comfort and was the way it calmed me down. 

For my next post I will write down the other ways I slowly transitioned to this new lifestyle of faith. I hope these 3 things were helpful for you. And I want you to know that whatever it is you are going through, have faith. Be like the women in the book of John, who had had a severe disease for 12 years. There was no cure for her, and she was considered dirty. No one could help her, and her only way was Jesus. She said, if I only touch the end of his garment, I will be healed. I pray you would fall on your knees before him. that you would want to cling to him and just really reach for him. He loves you, and he has nothing but the best to provide for you in your life.